(08/13/11)
Several weeks ago I was with my daughter in Wal-mart; and while I was looking at flags to put out for the fourth of July, she was looking at balloons. Ok, let me rephrase that… she was playing with balloons. No, I need to take that a step further… she had opened a pack of balloons and was blowing them up. Now, should I have paid a little more attention? Maybe… then I wouldn’t have had to buy the whole pack. Needless to say, I walked out of the store very frustrated. Later that afternoon, as we were running more errands, my daughter apologized to me saying, “I’m sorry, Mommy. I didn’t mean to do that.” Before I had a chance to think, I answered with, “Yes you did. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have done it.” Now, my daughter knows better than to pick up things that don’t belong to her; but being only seven years old, she is still learning to control her impulses. As I tried to explain to her the difference between ‘meaning it’ and ‘not meaning it’, I began thinking about my own prayer life. How often do I ask God’s forgiveness in the same way? “God, I’m sorry for what I did… I didn’t mean to do it.” I probably pray that prayer more than I should. So here’s my lesson… as I sit down to pray for forgiveness, I need to examine my own heart and ask myself the question, “Did I mean to do that?” And if I did ‘mean it’, take full responsibility and ask God to change my heart so that hopefully, I won’t do that again.
Psalm 26:2-3
Psalm 139:23-24